I had amazing parents. They were all the right kind of loving, strict, set a good example. When I was a kid. Everything is better when you are a kid right? You don’t know about all the horrors that are coming your way. And there is no one to blame for that. My parents were great. When I was a kid. I am not a kid anymore. So it’s time to start facing some truths. Life is not all sparkles and candy. Kids believe that. As they should. As parents it is our job to protect our children from the bif bad wolf. You wouldn’t be a good parent if you didn't keep the nightmares at bay. My parents...they kept the monsters at bay. For as long as they could. But then thre is point when you cant hold those monsters back anymore. It is no one's fault. So i am going to tell my story. And I blame no one. Sometimes the universe has other plans. Sometimes life is so incredibly unfair. But remember….there are no guarantees. Life is a beautiful mess. There are so many amazinly experiences. Experiences you can’t imagine. Experiences that morphyou. But guess what….there is pain. Unimaginable pain. It is within. And it will shape you. But never forget that you are in charge of HOW pain changes you. Do you go numb? Do you pretend like it never happened? Orr do you use that pain to become better? Do let your pain destroy you or are you going to let that pain help you grow. Grow into something stronger. Become a more compassionate person? Pain is real. And people are afraid of that truth. Don't get me wrong. There is such a thing is unimaginable pain. Sometimes so real you don’t know how you are going to pull yourself out. Don't let it destroy you. Use it. Own it. Be brave.
If you are looking for some feel good blog to read move on because I own my truth. And its ugly, hard, painful wonderful and beautiful. This is my story. And I am owning it. Life IS a fairy tale. But you get to decide the story goes. You get to choose your happy ending. Only you can choose. My grandma always said I should write. So I am going to write. But I am not sugar coating. I am an adult now. Good things happen. Bad things happen. But you get to choose if your life will be drowned in pain or epic. Stay tuned.
